My name is Ashley-Lauren and I am a singer and a songwriter. My purpose is found in helping others find their freedom in Jesus Christ through song and testimony. My story is rather complicated, but it all starts with the falling of the first domino: being raped. Rape is something that our society disregards, questioning if the victim is telling the truth or not, basically telling them that they should just get over it. I was raped at the age of seven and I hid the secret of my abuse for years. As a child, I always made everyone around me happy, leading others to believe that I was indeed happy, when inside I was withering away.
Years later, in adulthood, my world was turned upside down when I found out that my boyfriend was not at all who he said he was. I was so angry with God I couldn't even see straight! I thought after all that I had already been through, maybe, just maybe, I would have been cut some slack. After falling into a heavy relationship with alcohol and serial dating to make up for the seven year old me not being able to defend herself, I decided I was going to end my life.
But God had other plans.
That night, my co-worker, Lucy, who I hardly knew, said that she would be there for me. Then she followed through with her promise when her and her boyfriend showed up at my apartment, not to talk me out of anything, but to just talk. That conversation was my first taste of healing! My healing journey hasn’t been easy and I did backslide, but once I got around the right women and let God lead me to the right counselor, I had nowhere to go but UP!
There is so much more I'd love to share, but in short, God made me a gypsy soul. I was never meant to be captured by a man, led on, and abused, NONE of us are meant for that. And though I still don't understand why I had to suffer through such abuse, I have found healing in Him. I know He carries me, loves me, and encourages me to speak my truth through music and raw testimony. He hides me in the shelter of His wings, in the comfort of His grace, and I will never take that for granted.
We are WARRIORS and with God, we will always make it through the hurt.