God made me a gypsy soul. I was never meant to be captured by a man, led on, and abused, NONE of us are meant for that. And though I still don't understand why I had to suffer through such abuse, I have found healing in Him. I know He carries me, loves me, and encourages me to speak my truth through music and raw testimony. He hides me in the shelter of His wings, in the comfort of His grace, and I will never take that for granted.
We are WARRIORS and with God, we will always make it through the hurt.
This is why we celebrate. Because God so loved those he created that He gave His own Son who humbled Himself to be born in a place unfit for the One who created it all. His loving fulfillment of his promise is why we give gifts and spread cheer. His love that restored relationship with those of us who had strayed far from Him is the reason for the season.
Merry Christmas from We are Unveiled.
God is no longer this far off guy who’s mad at me, but someone who loves and cares for me. I lean on him daily and trust that he is leading me.
Despite my shame and the lies that had made my mind their home, God, in His gentleness, was convicting me day in and day out. While I wanted to fix myself, for myself, by myself, God wanted my surrender. God wanted to give me His grace. But I wanted the credit and glory for my healing.
I've lived with severe depression for years and tried to take my life many times, but God wasn't done with me. Now, I use my story and my message to encourage others. If God wasn't done with me, he surely isn't done with you! Don't give up. Keep going. Keep pursuing God!
When I first arrived at the church for We are Unveiled’s Night of Worship and Prayer, I honestly didn’t know what to expect, but I knew two things for certain:
1. God would show up
2. I would be challenged
And both happened.
Life is hard but it’s also pretty amazing. When I’m going through the fire, when things are rough, I know who my God is and I know that I can trust him. During hard moments he so sweetly reminds me of Psalm 66:12:
“God will bring you through the fire”
From a young age I knew I was different, set apart, and made for a greater purpose. Even in the darkest of times, when I was running as fast as I could away from God, this certainty of purpose remained constant. The redemption of the Lord is beautiful and it’s so apparent in my life.
I know God turned the ashes of my life into beauty to help others heal and return to the One who loved them first.
While not all of us are serving in the military or physically protecting those around us, we have all been given a realm of influence - there are places where we have authority. No matter where you are in life, what your profession is, or your background, as a daughter of the King, you carry incredible weight in this world.
God continues to seek me with grace, compassion, gentleness, and love. I may still struggle with insecurity, anxiety, and selfishness, but he is daily molding me into the image I was designed to embody. What a wildly beautiful savior, and storywriter He is!
By the time I graduated college, I was a people pleaser who was living on a grand, gold pedestal that others had placed me on. I didn't know how to live life off of the pedestal until one day I came tumbling down.
I was caught in a deep hole that consumed me the more I tried to find value in materialistic things, but none of them satisfied. I was so worn down by the tragedies in my life. I became hopeless.
I was bitter, rude, and full of loss. I had lost sight of that happy little girl I once was. I’m sure I could’ve kept going down this road of insecurity and depression but God fiercely intervened: He had a different story for me.
Anxiety can fall away when I am creating because creating is a God-given pleasure that mirrors only a small percentage of the unimaginable joy that awaits us in heaven. Little bothers that typically percolate through the folds of my mind evaporate when I experience a divine connection between my heart and God’s heart that only comes through creating. I am in tune with God when I create. I'm like God when I create. He understands what it’s like to make something and want it to be for good.
Rejoicing doesn’t mean ignoring or being fake, and I think that’s a reason why we are afraid to rejoice sometimes. It’s like we aren’t validating ourselves. I am a firm believer in acknowledging what’s going on and being real, but not letting it control you. There’s a balance, and that’s where choosing joy comes into play.
My journey was hard, but I find so much happiness in the fact that God set me apart and trusted me to be able to endure this life. I love people. I love Jesus. And I hope everyone I encounter feels that. As I continue to walk in this freedom, I’ve found rest in obedience to God. I don't have it all together and I won't pretend to; I don’t have to. Because grace doesn’t mean that you’ll always get it right, it means that you’ll never be so wrong that you can’t be used.
We live in a world that’s in a constant state of distress, there is opportunity to worry around every corner, and the future seems more cloudy than ever before! No wonder the anxiety epidemic is on the rise! Are we powerless in our lives and our battle with anxiety and fear? Thankfully, no.
Pain was a pit I often found myself in during this time, but love was the constant that pulled me out. I had set my course and devoted years to discovering what true love looks like.
I believe many of us can find a speck of light in our lives if we look hard enough. This doesn’t make the depression, the anxiety, the fear, or the darkness go away automatically but eventually it causes you to see your battle with an entirely different perspective.
Don't let that negative thinking tell you that you shouldn’t or that you’re incapable. Training your brain to have healthy thinking doesn’t just apply to dreams for your life; it applies to everything. When you believe the BEST about YOU then you will start to view others this way and it will teach you to have more grace and patience for others.